Over Cups of Coffee

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I wish I knew why
I feel so empty inside
Like all the happiness is gone
And I feel like I’m all alone
Unloved and uncared;
While the rest of the world
Has no moment to spare

I wish I knew why
The tears well up in my eyes
Like sadness is overtaking me
And I feel like I’m crumbling
Numb and choking;
While the people around
Continue laughing and joking

I wish I knew why
The fears engulf my life
Like the future has no hope for me
And all that I do will amount to nothing
Isolated and abandoned;
As people in my life
Finally let me down and leave

I wish I knew why
That despite all that I have
There’s only darkness that I can see
No rainbow through the grey clouds in life
Cynical and pessimistic;
And no one will ever love
Someone like me

I wish I knew how
To rid myself of these fears and doubts
And the sadness that pervades through me
To not feel like I’m all alone
Confused and bleak;
As if I cannot speak
Of those deepest darkest fears to those around me

I wish I knew how
To make myself feel better
But no matter what I seem to try
It only works for a little while
As a mask for others to see
Then I’m by myself again
And all the fears and tears they reappear

Until next time,