Just wondering...

...why are people so impatient? Why can't they wait for two seconds till the light turns green and I move ahead and then they can turn left? Why swear at me...especially when I haven't broken any road rules?

...why am I so confused about so many things lately? I just can't seem to make a decision. I want to sometimes and at other times, I have my doubts. I am so confused. :(

...why do better jobs get advertised when I have just started a new one? And why do I think that I have made a mistake?

...why am I so bored and apathetic about most things apart from my creative writing and Italian classes?

...why do I find it so hard to get along with people my own age? I seem to make friends with older people...even in my two weeks of classes, I have become friendly with women older than me...two of whom are grandmothers. (And unlike what one of my friends told me, I'm not gifted!)

...why do I have to share with someone who is like a juvenile? Seriously, I sometimes feel like I'm sharing with a teenager even though she's just a year younger than me. I am currently modelling cleanliness behaviours at home. When she's around, I'm cleaning the kitchen when I drop crumbs on the bench!

...why am I so mature and responsible when it comes to most things but not in some other areas? I am running my house and can make decisions there...but for some other things, I can be so stupid and indecisive!

...why is it that the days I am running late for work are the days there will be an accident on the road thereby disrupting traffic?

...why do people who have worked for years and years think that they are definitely doing the right thing and not willing to listen to someone with a different view? Not in terms of client work but more so in terms of administrative stuff. Someone else may just have a better idea because they are viewing things with fresh eyes.

...why does my heart hurt so much when I miss or worry about certain people in my life?

...why do I get jealous so easily? I have always been this way since a child. When can I get over it? And how?

...why am I so critical about almost every person I meet? [An entire post on this will come up sometime soon...]

...why am I so scared to go seek therapy? It's what I do for a living...encourage people to get rid of that stigma and come and see me. But I'm scared to get help for myself.

...why do I love to be by myself and yet crave the company of a loved one?

...why do I worry about the future even though I know it is not going to do me any good since I do not know what the future holds?

Why?

Will I ever get answers to any of these?

I guess I don't really mind...just wanted to put it out there...

Until next time,

Cheers!!!